Exhaustion and Anticipation

Tired, went to bed late and woke up early, spent the first full day out of the apartment in a LONG time. I'm doubting my abilities as a student as the second semester rapidly approaches. I wonder if I can successfully memorize all that I will need to for good grades in 3 Art History classes. I want to really up my GPA this semester and get all A's rather than A's and B+'s like last time. I'm sure that to some I sound ridiculous complaining about B+'s but for some reason, to me they feel more like C's and D's. I know that I am going to have to work really hard this semester and the daunting task at hand is taking its toll emotionally. I need to figure out how to find the correct balance between hard work and confidence without being cocky.

The Perfect Song

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far
Jon McLaughlin - So Close Lyrics

Golden Globes Commentary

LOTS more don'ts than Do's this year
David Duchovney- Zach Braff did his hair
Debroah Messing- Cat on her head, fluffy cat
Hayden Paniterre- I don't care if I cant Spell this- looks like a stripper however, props for not being orange- tacky comment on the red carpet about her show (fail).
Jonas Brothers- Why? Just, why?
Side note- Wall-E better fucking win best animated feature.
Miley Cyrus- WHY? Who let her in? and why is she dressed up like Lauren Conrad?
American Ferrara- looks like she is planning to travel into the future.
Eva Mendez- Being Choked by Turquoise.
Leo- "She's my homey"- what the fuck?
WHY THE FUCK IS BLAKE LIVELY ANNE HATHAWAY?????? ANNE SHOULD BE ON A PEDESTAL OF HER OWN NOT NEXT TO THAT.
I LOVE ANNE-don't know how to feel about her dress. Shiny and purple...meh
Marissa Tomei- is wearing the puffy shirt from Seinfeld/ Johnny Depp's costume from pirates.
Zac Effron- WHYYYYYYY and he brought miss "my face wash smells bad"
Megan Fox- looks like a whore at all times.
John Krasinski- YUMMMMM. He is HOT, I don't care what anybody says..
OK..now I am bored of this. Maybe I will be back later

The Problem with the New Season of Jon and Kate

Lord knows I love this show, I would watch it every day if I could and sometimes I do. But honestly, the show is much more entertaining when Jon and Kate hate each other. More specifically, when John hates Kate/ rolls his eyes at her all the time/ drools over his long haired personal trainer. Me thinks that the show was getting some maybe-you-need-to-get-divorced emails and the producers threatened to cut off the Gosselin's only (TLC based) income. I miss when Jon looks at Kate like she is stupid, genuinely and impossibly stupid.
On another note, has ANYONE been paying attention to Joel lately?? Something is off with this kid. I love him and he is adorable but he is going to grow up to be the new Adrian Monk. At the newest episode the kids went to a Philly's game and Joel would NOT run the bases like a normal kid because he didn't want dirt on his shoe!!! Something is up!! Look into it TLC! Its called early intervention! My mother does it for a living! She can help.

New Hair Cut

This time I went Dramatically different.
It feels good, Its definitely odd for the self esteem because having hair so short really puts pressure on your other features to take over and become the more defining feminine elements of your appearance.

Long Distance Meets Real Life

So I have discovered the awful thing that makes long distance relationships suck. To be clear, I am talking about actual, good relationships and not the ridiculous I-cheat-on-you-you-cheat-on-me-I-like-Kegs relationships. I am referring to the relationships that are most definitely going somewhere.
Now this may be frustrating because I have no advice or helpful words to give besides for the simple fact that there is nothing anyone can do about it. You see, the thing that makes long distance relationships terribly painful at moments are the things that we simply cannot control. Stupid stuff that just happens and gets in the way like money or work or school, things that probably everyone hates just as much as they need them.
I guess it helps to vent on silly things like this because these stupid, uncontrollable things are frustrating and awful. Sometimes the only emotion humanly possible during this crap is anger. And what makes it even worse is that its anger with no specific direction. Its anger at the universe for letting such stupid stupid stuff come up and ruin a day or a weekend or a month.
Don't get me wrong, these little bumps in the road are not or shouldn't be the kind of things that make or break a relationship. They happen to everyone and we all have to deal with them in our own way. I am in no way afraid for or unhappy with my relationship even when these things come up, its just hard, and it sucks and I am so angry and I don't know what do with it. My advice to myself is to get up and get out of the house we will see tomorrow if that proves helpful.

New Years Resolutions

OK..so I know I have been horrible about writing on this. And I know that probably no one reads it but, I would like to write more if anything as a outlet for stress or random thoughts..in that case, maybe its better if no one reads this. So I've come up with a list of resolutions for 2009 that hopefully I will keep and maybe a few people will be entertained by my new devotion to the blogging sensation.
1. Blog more ( funny, sad, angry, whatever)
2. Learn to cook ( I just think its something that can be creative and fun and everyone should have some sort of basic understanding of it)
3. Get out of my apartment (maybe find a part time job or just explore Boston)
4. Work up to my potential in school (not just half assing everything, A's on all my finals showed me I could do more)
Well, any more than four and I would really be kidding myself. Everyone knows that resolutions are really hard to keep and such so I should really limit it before I get too overwhelmed by it or just give up on it, whichever comes first.